May03,2012

1:43am

-last week g.borrowed my jacket, colored yellow.( and that jacket wasnt mine i just borrowed it from lola and that jacket owned by my great grandmother, my lola kept it in the closet and actually no one used that jacket except me bcoz i begged to my lola coz i dont have a jacket at maa)

well, yesterday i asked for it from G. bcoz i need it, so that i could wash and return it to my lola. but when i asked it to her, she just told me;

=naa sa ako friend sa locker kuhaa lng basta naa lng didto locker tan awa lng didto......

- i mean haler!! she didnt gave me the name of her friend and sa dami ng mga locker anong gusto niya halongkaton naku tanan locker diri....

i honestly dont understand her anymore, her attitued really pissed me! and shes getting into my nerves....

i could not imagine that she has this kind attitude problem...i really tried to understand her everyday in everyways but the thing shes abusing me.......

Lord please help me, i dont wanna hurt anyone or her coz i know she's really in trouble now, i know that you used to help her, feed her and give her a place to live with....but shes not helping her self....and abusing me.

chay

2:27am

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May 05, 2012

9:56pm

i had a quite bad day, i wanst able to get rest, as i always wish for, to get enought sleep and make bawi sa mga days that i dont have enough sleep, like i had only 2 hours sleep in the morning and evening and that makes me feel so dizzi, and sleepy on the floor.and kabuhi occurs....

i really wanna stay at gulf view but the problem is its too hot naman there, this afternoon i wanst able to sleep bcoz its too hot, electricfan cant help me, bcoz i easily get panohot...huhuhuhuhu......Help me Lord please...

chay

10:00pm

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-same

3:01am

- i misssssssssss my blog soooooo much... i love writting, it's been a while now i haven't write on my blog, and i rarely check FB, thats bored on me, i miss those things, that sometimes releive my stress, fb i can communicate my friends, and my blog where i can freely write whatever i want....i have a lot of things to buy and i dont know which of them is to prioritize,,,,huhuhuhuhuhu......

yeah school first,,,oh yeah! i already told my mom about my tutorial subject,im happy it feels like im sinless!!(i know im still a sinner ok..) i owed money from a friend and im paying it, method of paying is it minus my salary every 15 days...huhuhuhu...but thats fine! it's worth it! and after im done paying it, i want to buy a laptop and keyboard and guitar and i dont know which of it to buy first,,,,the most cheapest and i can afford right after salary is the guitar but i want more the laptop and keyboard i want to save money for those......but how....i have to save money to travel/vacation and going to the temple and so much things to do,,,rj and i planning to rent a house near by our office, i dont know if it is gonna work and if is practical to do. i dont know im not so sure about this...

rj and i are planning to rent a house near to our office, well, rj whatever her reasons, i understans her..me? my reasons are :

1. i cant stand it anymore living at my aunt's house, actually almost everything are free there, and the aircon is free, but i cant sleep well, bcoz of the noise, and nahihiya na ako and i dont wanna stay long pa there.

2. i really wanna go home at gulf view, but i'm not sire if i can sleep well there, there are kids also and it's too hot now it's so summer. but i miss being with my mom.

3.well, i want to rent, bcoz it's near and i am planning to do some business, like baking and online shop....i dont know if i can do it if i will separate...

im not sure if it will work...but i really wanna try....i want extra income to provide my needs and wants....

pchay

4:34am

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May 10, 2012

5:20am

- hi i was soooo happy that my mom came yesterday together with my nephew dave, last monday i texted my mom to come over bcoz i haven't enough sleep and so tired and cant manage anymore the workload in the house with joshua.

my mom is sooooo supportive and i really dont know how make bawi to her, maybe being a good daughter to her....i can ....but not being perfect.,... i love my mom so much,,,i really dont know how to make her happy....i know shes happy but to make her happier....i have a lot of plans for her and for my papa....i love you ma...your the best!

my mom she is such a wonderful mom, she's the most incredible one, a precious woman who dont deserves to get hurt. shes only deserves to be happy always. she's a blessing and a gift from heaven, she loves me unconditionally. i love you ma!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

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May 12,2012

11:20pm

- hi everytime i look at bianca G. blog, i envy her sometimes because she travel a lot, and now i look at patty laurel blogger,i envy them with some sort of things.

im 29 years old, and this is not a joke anymore!!! i need a more meaning life!! STABLE JOB,!! STABLE INCome! so MANY THINGS WANt to have and to give and to buy and to save and to DO.!!

-my mom was right if i wll pursue my profession i cant buy a house, this i am serious with my profession i will pursue it! i will take the board exam NLE this year and i'm gonna pass the exam and i will pass the exam.

plan A - STUDY!

PLAN B - save money

plan C - think of business

GOAL!!!

-STUDY

-EXERCISE

-take the board exam.

- i honestly tired of working in a call center but i need a job for this time and an income coz im paying a lot of depts thats why i want to have an extra income. but i promised to myself that i cant stay here like long years! actually im happy here in olink and its like my body clock adjusted with this kind of work.

chay

11:55pm

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May 16,2012

11:59pm

-hi! i am so glad today! my auntie already have a nanny i can sleep well now!! hahahahahahaha.....at least someone will watch joshua while im still sleeping.perfect!. Thank you Lord...that was soo hard for me when the time that me and auntie was at the house we do all the chores at home and me i dont have enough sleep its like always 2 hours sleep in a day gosh! its really my kabuhi attacking me and always feel dizzi, that was so hard for me everytime i go to work...but now i feel better but still i need 8 hours to sleep to rest my eyes.

i have problem, i havent went to school yet,, ireally wanted to go there, sobra...but i hope i could go tomorrow afternoon. i need to get my white form. and start my tutorial.i really want to finish it and also my xhibit form.hopefully and i will try hard to finish it all this month.!

chay

12:20am

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May 17, 2012

6:49am

- sahod time! but a lot of debts need to pay...but dont worry im almost done with it..kungting tiis nlng talaga sobra. i will do all my best to go to school this afternoon i really need it! hopefully marj can go with me, i need to meet my teacher today, and i need to lokat my cellphone and and try all my best to lokat mamas cp next month.

- well, yesterday i texted gen about she borrowed money, i need it so badly. last night i was quite pissed off , oh yes!! she pay me but she asked pa other person para eabot ang envelope with the money inside.....!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....kainis ang ugali! why she needs to do that? thats rude gud...ipasa niya sa taong hindi ko fren or kakilala...ano ba yan!!!nanugo pajud xa....

i never expect she have that kind of attitude...its soooooo opposite sa kanyang pinakita sa akin dati.....at least i know and i discover the real her...she is sooooo maPRIDE na wala sa lugar.

- the lord knows whats inside of my mind and my heart, i really dont wanna hurt her and i really wanna make friend with her again but shes not doing anything to save our friendship.........

-hindi ko talaga magets ang ugali niya sobra ibang-iba in the way she talk.and the way she act....hahahahahayyyyyyyyy......

i already made a move and open the issue but she didnt do anything to make these things and the issue ok...but instead she just ignored it just like nothings happened, though she reply to my text but soooo playing safe...and she said sorry...but after that she never meant it....it really shows that she never meant.!!!

im still hoping that this issue will be fix one day.

chay 7:33am